Aims blog

I thought love was only true in Fairy tales

2009-01-09T09:50:00.000-08:00

Once upon a time in a kingdom far, far away. Their lived a princess who wore the most beautiful black clothes with an apron of blue and green which sparkled as it caught in the sunlight. Every day she met her Prince. They became best of friends over time.
They would disguise themselves and go into the local village and mix amongst the villagers. They had fun and they would laugh.
The only thing was that the prince was under an evil spell upon which a wicked witch had placed on him for some time. It kept the price bound to the witch so he could never love another person other than the witch. The princess was saddened and disappointed at the thought of this. Because the princess had fallen in love with the prince. She loved to spend time with him, and he made her laugh all the time, but when it came down to it she knew that she could put her life in his hands he would guard it with his life. The princess tried to fall in love with other princes who were more charming, or handsome, or rich than the other prince. But she knew her heart would belong to him for as long as she lived, even if he did not know it.
One day the wicked witch caught the prince amongst the villagers laughing and having fun and she got angry and cast him away from her for all eternity.
The prince believed that he loved the wicked witch and that the wicked witch loved him. He tried hard to make her come to him again, but alas with no avail he realized the wicked witch would never love him again. He grew sad and every day the princess could see how sad he was but all she could do was be there for him and be his friend in the hopes that someday he would realize that his true love lay waiting patiently beside him.

I have a theory that my mum read too many fairy tales to me when i was young so i have a really fucked up outlook on love and the reason i haven't had a relationship is because I'm looking for "the one".
I mean the one is there even any such thing?
Is there just one person out there for every one person?
Do you go through a couple of people before you finally meet "the one"?

The population of the world is 6,706,993,152 from July of 2008
On the 01 July 2007 the world Population was 6,602,224,175 that means more than 3,301,112,087 are women. So if there is only one man for one woman, There are going to be some very disappointed women out there. Should we just give up now?
Why chase, why put on make up and pretty clothes? If natural selection works anyway there is always going to be a few disappointed souls!

For me, I know I give out just a little bit but I believe that love is out there for me. When the time is right, I will meet "the one" that is right for me at that moment in time.
I think there can be many "ones" though out your life they might be a lover, or a friend, or just someone who caught your eye and you ended up kissing never knowing a thing about that person. But in that moment in time, they were "the one" for you. They were the right person to come into your life at that time. Who knows why, but in that moment in time, they were the one for you. But there can only ever be "the one" true soul mate who will capture your heart for all of eternity because you trust him with your life, he is your best friend, he is the person who makes you laugh, he is your lover, he is the person who catches your eye across a crowed room and makes your heart skip a beat. He is the prince. Ans all you can hope for is that you live happily eve after.

The End

Quotes

2009-01-05T03:07:00.000-08:00

“The choices we make and the chances we take, determine our destiny.”

"To love is to risk not being loved in return. To hope is to risk pain. To try is to risk failure, but risk must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing.

"Seduce my mind and you can have my body, find my soul and I'm yours forever..."

"True love cannot be found where it truly doesn't exist, nor can it be hidden where it truly does."

Mistakes

2009-01-04T18:39:00.000-08:00

Mistakes are made.....................
Aren't you supposed to learn from your mistakes???
Being 22 I feel I am young enough to make mistakes, old enough to learn from them and young enough to repeat them.

First and foremost mistakes are made and you learn from these mistakes........................ but because you are in your twenty's you have a tendency to repeat these mistakes if you weren't some how physically or emotionally injured in the process of making it.

Ah but if learning from your mistakes was as simple as it sounds. Regrettably it isn't.
How do you find your self back it the same place, where you were only this time you know exactly how you feel, but you don't know if AGAIN you can do anything about it.
Fecking love! how do you tell your best friend that you are madly in love with him and would do anything in the world for them. Thing is since I found out he was going out with someone over a year ago I was trying so so hard to get over him. And now they have broken up but he is still mad about her and I'm back where I was but only now I know how I really feel about him.

I don’t want to be back where I was again. I don’t want to be in the same place as I was before, loving a guy that I can't have. The thing is now, our freindship is more solid than it ever was before. We have become best freinds over the year.
I need to move on I just can’t do it, but I cant help how I feel about him. Because if I stop for a moment, I’ll admit I love him.
I know he loves me too though, he’s told me he loves me. Thats the killer, but its just as a best friend.

“Experience is the name every one gives to their mistakes.” Oscar Wilde

The Journey

2009-01-04T18:38:00.000-08:00

The Journey Mary Oliver

One day you finally knew
what you had to do, and began,
though the voices around you
kept shouting
their bad advice--
though the whole house
began to tremble
and you felt the old tug
at your ankles.
"Mend my life!"
each voice cried.
But you didn't stop.
You knew what you had to do,
though the wind pried
with its stiff fingers
at the very foundations,
though their melancholy
was terrible.
It was already late
enough, and a wild night,
and the road full of fallen
branches and stones.
But little by little,
as you left their voices behind,
the stars began to burn
through the sheets of clouds,
and there was a new voice
which you slowly
recognized as your own,
that kept you company
as you strode deeper and deeper
into the world,
determined to do
the only thing you could do--
determined to save
the only life you could save.